Sunday, August 10, 2014
This week I went back to Minecraft after hubby fixed my Java issue that had prevented me from getting on. There are some new blocks that you get from an underwater temple and I wanted to play with them. I thought I'd build a pool because I could light it with the new lanterns and the blue of the new prismarine blocks would be stunning. And...I was right.
The problem began with the zombie. I hadn't even filled the pool yet and a zombie jumped in...followed by some skeletons and a creeper. They would not get out of my pool. If I killed them, they just came back. So I built a wall around my house and pool that they couldn't get through and lit the whole place up so they couldn't spawn. I had left an opening for a door and a witch kept walking in to.
Pool party at Ruinwens'! They are all around the perimeter of the wall now....except for the spider...he keeps coming back. I need to fix that a bit later.
I've been thinking about this situation and how it applies to real life. I have a lot of doubts about things. They continually creep around my head and sabotage my thinking. I have to force myself not to think about them or I would lie awake at night and worry or fret over things I can't change.
When you are lying in your bed at 2 am it is not the time you can fix the mistake on your paperwork or make that follow-up call you forgot. When those creepers come out to play in the pool of my consciousness I just have to wall them off from disturbing me. I lay everything at the feet of the God and Goddess and just let it go.
And usually I take it right back in the next thought...so then I breathe light into the doubt and tell it I have noticed its presence but this is not the time for action. Then I relinquish my attachment to it for the rest of the night. Most times this ritual works and the next time I wake up it is morning.
Right now my little Minecraft pool is awash in light and clear and blue...like my ocean happy place in my head...if the creepers come back I will just let in more light.
Here is the Awesome Trellis completed...two of them actually. One is made with sock-weight yarn and the other is DK weight yarn. I really like this pattern and the effect of the flowers climbing the trellis.
I fixed the problem at the join by using cables. They are easy to make and I never even used a cable needle.
We were going over the classes that I have worked on over the past three years and I realized that there really are a lot of them! I need to polish up the patterns and get them up on Ravelry. But this is where my creepers come back and say things like, "I bet there is a mistake," or "no one cares about your stupid little patterns."
It is harder to protect myself from these nagging doubts that creep through my mind on a daily basis. Why is it so hard to believe in myself? Why do I sabotage myself? WHY? :(
Don't mind me...I'll be hanging lanterns in the the recesses of my subconscious.