Friday, November 26, 2010

Happy Turkey Day!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Shadow climbed into the Coke Zero box and he loved it in there. Isn't it great how cats can find happiness in the simplest things? There is a lesson there no? :)

I decided yesterday that I was giving up.

I have been struggling with the chaos around me for so long that has been eating me alive. I have so much anger over things that I cannot control that I struggle with pretending to be happy half the time. By some miracle I am staying healthy though I show many classic signs of stress disorders. And I just couldn't juggle everything anymore.

I closed my eyes and surrendered it all to the God and Goddess. I opened my heart and gave them all my struggles and troubles. I confessed that my way was not working and I was open to change. I was tired of looking through the eyes of anger and prayed to see through the eyes of love. I opened myself up and affirmed that I was ready for a miracle...a change in perception. I am willing to change...I have to change.

And I felt this overwhelming peace settle over me. Even now I feel different. Whenever my mind starts back on it's old path of negativity; I hear this gentle admonishment to center me again.

There is this weight that is gone today. Giving over everything to the Divine is a balm for my soul.

I'm not a total Pollyanna...I know that I will still struggle...but now I know in my heart that I wil be okay.

I wish you all Bright Blessings and full bellies.


Geraldine said...

Shadow definitely looks pleased! And I agree, there can be happiness found in simple pleasures. I wish I had a cat cave like the Ched, that's my idea of a retreat!!!

Hugs Ruinwen and take care, G

Rue said...

Just letting go of the idea that things can be "fixed" can be a huge liberation. It's a conundrum of human nature that when we're confronted with situations we can't control, we try to persuade ourselves that it is: "if I can only do x, y won't happen".

After all, you can't have peace at any price, if no one's selling.

...that may or not make sense. :O

Geraldine said...

Just stopping in to leave a hug. Hope things are going ok today.

Take care, G

KnitNana said...

I love Shadow's choice in hideaway!
And wish you a lot of peace...there's just a certain amount of life that we can't control, and that's a hard thing to learn...