Sunday, October 20, 2013
Love is Infinite You Can Always Make More
"Love doesn't end with death."
a blurb taken from my Hospice newsletter
It has taken months for my mind to really believe this. A loss of someone important in your life is devastating. In the first few months after they pass you feel a hole that can't be filled. And hopefully, other things slowly close that hole up a bit as time goes on. You may not think of them as often and when you do it might be because of good memories that make you smile. You will always miss them but the underlying truth is, "love doesn't end with death."
The moments you shared with your loved one are yours. Your love for them is eternal. Death does not change that. When a I hear a bird call that I know, I smile and remember Dad teaching me how to "talk" to them at the cabin. When I watched Lethal Weapon this weekend, Mom was right there enjoying every minute with me. I find myself still looking under blankets for Widdershins since she loved to hide under them. These are all precious memories that are dear to me and allow my loved ones to still be with me.
Do I still have moments of tears and sadness that bubble up from within me and rent me in two? Yes, of course. But the good memories and the love that I have for them outweigh the sadness more often then not.
Do you believe in Fate or Karma? Widdershins loved my husband with her every breath. I believe that she reached into the soul of the Universe and made a wish that her "person" would find someone new to take care of him. She knew her passing would be so hard but she also knew that it was her time to go.
The day she passed there was a kitten that had been brought in that morning. His Mom had been hit by a car and he was all alone. He was sweet and white and tiny as kittens are. But my husband couldn't even think of a another cat, especially when he was losing his beloved little Widdershins. He told me later that he had to take a peek though before he left the Doctor's Office to see who was mewing back there.
A week later I came to get Widdershins' memorial box and the Doctor put the little white kitten in my arms. It is hard to know what to do. It is easy to say that one isn't ready for a new kitten so soon; but it is almost impossible not to fall in love with a sweet little face and big blue eyes.
So I went home and talked it over with the family and the next day everyone went to hold the little white fluff ball. And he has enchanted us all. So, please welcome the newest member of our family who has yet to be named but has already won our hearts.