But, secretly...even to myself...I was...
You see I believe in using the "snowball effect" whenever possible for tasks that are just so huge that I get a panic attack just thinking about them.
In the snowball effect just doing the small parts of a task eventually leads to being able to do bigger parts until everything is rolling along and you find yourself at the half-way mark without as much hassle.
I used this technique to get out of debt many years ago. First I paid the minimum on all the bigger debts, then I paid as much as could to the small debts. As the smaller debts went away, then I allocated that amount to the next debt with the least amount on it. It took about three years but I kept with it and then in the end that money got allocated to savings.
Real change takes time. I have been watching what I eat since last July when I just couldn't move right anymore and everything hurt at the end of the day. It is a long process and can't be called a diet because I can eat anything up to my calorie allotment for the day. I just hit my second goal and I am so happy! Everything feels better. I sleep better and I move better.
So, at least with everything going on I never stopped working on me. I've been chipping away at this diamond in the rough enjoying myself at each point of the process of becoming something new.
But the Basement...that is a different story. I got so disheartened after finding the mice again and again. It kept me away from organizing and doing all the things I had wanted to do in the Spring.
But to amazement, that wasn't really true.
Over time my hubby and I had been grabbing this or that from the kitchen boxes and they had become much lighter over the years. When I went down to find something to make apple tarts I found something else I wanted upstairs. This led to me rummaging around in the box and bringing half of the items in it up with me.
At this point, I realized why not just clean out the box?
So I did. I washed everything and found new homes for the items.
I've never understood why I have to get so freaked out about big tasks that I just abandon them altogether.
After my success, I decided to make a snowball effect chart for the Basement and list every task from small to big. I'm dedicating most of my time to the small ones. The bigger tasks I have broken down into smaller tasks so I can chip away on them just like I did with my bills.
As of today, I have cleared out two boxes and thrown away all the broken items or outgassing plastic that I don't need or want in our kitchen.
In the process of all this cleaning, I found something that gave me an idea for my next project for TKGA. I never would even have thought of this without the help from the Basement project! I feel like my snowball is rolling already and I just started last week!
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So, the last post I was working on Thorny and I had gotten really far...I even ordered this yarn from TheWoolyCabin:
This yarn was specifically picked for how it meshed with my memories of Sis and me at our cabin in the Shenandoah. We would roam the woods in hues of green and brown and then sit by a roaring fire with orange embers dancing on the logs. The cranberry color was my favorite color of leaves in the Autumn. It is one of the reasons I have a Japanese Maple tree because I love those beautiful brilliant jewel tones of red.
It is soft and beautifully dyed. I can't wait to see my pattern knit up in it. But for now, that will have to wait.
I received a design call and my knitting had to change gears. I spent the week swatching and trying out ideas.
This is another of those projects I can't share with you until publication.
I feel like this is always how these things begin. I have an idea, I don't know if it will work but I feel inspired and curious...so we will see how things work out.
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I have missed knitting with friends during COVID so now I have two virtual meetups where we are making a project together and I am using stash yarn.
Rosy Blooms by Stephen West, yarn Expression Fiber Arts: Cherry Blossom, Knit Picks: Stroll Glimmer Black (I think neither of these yarns exists anymore 😭) (Expression Fiber Arts dyes lots and then they are gone, but she is always creating beautiful new themed stuff)
Rosy Blooms caught my eye because it has lace and brioche. I love the whole idea of it. Stephen West is such a brilliant designer. He is always thinking outside of the box.
Clapotis by Kate Gilbert, yarn Knitpicks: Chroma Manzanita (This color is also not stocked, but chroma has many beautiful colorways and it a joy to watch shift colors. This yarn has really long color stretches...I just adore working with it!
I have made so many Clapotis over the years. It is such a fun pattern. Dropping the stitches is scary...then fun...then freeing.
I hope you are making something that brings you joy!
Happy crafting!
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Safe socially-distanced hugs 🤗
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Sending love and light to everyone being affected by this virus.
May you be safe.
May your loved ones be safe.
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May you be safe.
May your loved ones be safe.
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Sending love and light to everyone facing discrimination, hate, prejudice, inequality, or racism.
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Thanks for reading!
Happy crafting!
Ruinwen
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2 comments:
Is that what a Clapotis looks like before dropping the stitches? I never knew! Neat!
... you know though, you weren't really doing "nothing" in those weeks after COVID. Dealing with anxiety and panic, and altering your daily routines, working out those new balances ... all of that takes emotional and mental energy. That's work, too. As Mr. Gillespie told us in psych class, "change = stress."
And none of that inner work went to waste. You (mostly maybe more or less?) got a handle on the fears, reworked your days, and achieved that "new normal" where it's all just routine now -- which is probably why the creative juices are flowing again. That deserves some kudos in and of itself!
Thank you for your comment and your kind words. You are right on with your psych eval (Mr. Gillespie would be so proud). I have taken those fears and stress and reshaped them into meals and ideas and new space to learn and grow. Kind of like Frederick but with fewer colors. 🤗
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