Last Friday Mom was rushed to the ER and while I know it was scary and horrible for her...for Dad, DH and I it was like a 70’s sitcom.
We picked up Dad from AL and raced to the ER.
At the ER we were given passes to go see Mom.
We got to Mom’s room and she was not there.
An ER nurse told us that she had just left on transport.
We rushed back to AL.
Transport was still in the drop off zone when we returned.
Mom was being tucked into the bed by the time we got to her room.
So we let Mom rest and took Dad out for sushi.
What does this have to do with prayer shawls? On Sunday my sister presented me with this.
Apparently Mom’s shawl took the hit of her ER visit. Dad was hoping that I could just rip it out and re-knit it. But I think that this yarn has given it’s all to Mom and it should just be laid to rest. As tragic as that is…that was its purpose. And to fulfill your intention is a noble thing.
I asked her if she wanted a triangle or rectangle shawl this time and as with most things…she didn’t know. So I’m going to pray on it a bit and see what happens. While I loved the pattern I just used…I’m open to another.
In truth; I’ve been very open to the voice of spirit and now I don’t feel so scattered.
I had this great meditation Monday night about my goals and what path I should be following.
When I started this summer I had so many ideas and goals that I wanted to accomplish and very few of them got done. It is like my son. He had the e-n-t-i-r-e summer to put away the papers in his backpack from the last day of school and he never did it.
Spirit told me that I just needed to accept that the things that were worked on this summer were what was supposed to be and to leave it at that. Then Spirit asked me the things that didn't get done...what was stopping me?
...and those excuses that I'd been making to myself...I just couldn't say them to Spirit ya'know? But at the same time I could see the other things that got done...like all the work on the house.
Then Spirit hugged me and told me that the things that were connected to time had been done. That many times my heart gets way ahead of my mind and starts things before they are ready. Like the tarot card of the man pulling on the shoots to get them to grow faster.
All these goals are good for their time and place in my life but they cannot be accomplished all at once.